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Friday, February 21, 2014

SHE Confession #7: I Just Can't Anymore

I'm not feeling this between us anymore. I have been let down and disregarded so many times in my past and now you too... Was it naive of me to think you were incapable of doing the same? I guess...I have tried my best to always be there for you when you needed someone to talk to, someone to care or just simply be there. You know it really wasn't no task at all, for I hung onto every word that you so much as even uttered from your beautiful lips.

I thought I had the same in you but, in return you disappointed me… You fell out of my life once again. You checked out once more. As life with me became too much for you to bear you just simply stopped calling. Not once did you seem to care what was going on with me. What you had going on was all that seem to truly matter anyways.

Loving you was a certainty that I would be there. I respected your need to do things differently and handle things your own way. At the same time your actions forced me to realize what works for me and this one-way surely doesn't anymore. Walking out of my life and strolling back when it is conducive for you…really?

During your hiatus I reached out to you because I needed you, I needed someone to talk to, someone to just listen with care… Instead you were nowhere to be found because, you were busy doing you. This last time you showed up expecting to get back in, back to when we were at our ultimate high. I just simply can't keep doing this again and again, I just can no longer do us. Not because I don't love you anymore. Hell, I still do...maybe even more. I just can't endure the pain anymore. This whole thing has got me so weak...I can't foresee me ever trusting you as I once did and that is why I just can't anymore.  

7 comments:

  1. Would love to get you involved with my twitter chat tomorrow about love and relationships leading up to BET's hit Drama Being mary Janes Season finale. Could you contact me back asap? @EricaVain on twitter or Erica@EricaVain.com . Sorry to put this in the comments but I couldn't find a contact page. Thanks!

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  2. Exactly, we really had to get to a point when we just tired of fixing everything. Sometimes we tend to just forget about the person and let go of all the heartache it causes us.

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  3. A friend of mine came across an interesting app called the Boyfriend Profiler. Its for women (20-30) and although its for fun she got a lot out of it regarding the personality type of the man she was dating. Worth a try right?!

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  4. I am going through this now. I feel as though I'll never be able to say no to him. He has let me down and disappointed me time and time again, yet my love for him allows this to go on repeatedly. I wish I had your strength to walk away forever.

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  5. I think sometimes women want to be loved, but should work more on trying to be liked in a relationship. Where when you like your women you want to take her everywhere you hang out at. Some woman are not likable there leavable.

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